三”烦“

今天，不知怎么搞的。。

很多事情发生。。

我心情不好。。他也心情不好。。

我是因为我找不到我的保健卡，着急。。

我爸进院。。

和因为他的事情烦。。

然而他呢就因为被朋友出卖而非常不开心。。

我很想跟他聊天。。

希望他能开心些。。我第一次看他那么静得坐在班上。。

不说话。。过后还要假装微笑。。

我的心情也因为它变得糟糕！！为什么我会这样？？

这么没用！！

梦

这几天，我的心情不是很好，我好像发现我自己喜欢上他了。。但他好像不喜欢我。。我在控制自己不要做得太明显。。希望他不要知道。。因为我不想关系变质。。所以我会一直保持朋友的线。。我变得很喜欢跟他讲话。。变得如果塔米讯息我我心情会不好。。我喜欢我们永远有讲不完的话题。。我希望我可以为他做什么。但我又怕搬上的朋友讲我们。。过后我们会尴尬，然后不敢跟对方讲话。。我不想要这样。。我并不是这么喜欢生气，我只想撒娇。。难道她看不出来吗？？？

矛盾

当我看到别人有男朋友时，我的眼神总是羡慕的，但当有人对我好时，我那害怕的心情就来了，我不知道为什么会这样，只是心情很矛盾，我会开始害怕那种对我好的感觉，我不懂怎么面对那种对我好的感觉，我的压力很大。。谁能帮我？？？我的样子是这样的，如果不是我喜欢的男生，如果他对我好，我会很压力，我会去逃避他，但如果是我喜欢的男生，我会接受他所作的一切，这会不会显得我很自私呢？？如果我持续这样，我是不是会面临很大的问题呢？？我该怎么办？自从他跟我告白，而我也说喜欢他过后，我的无形压力就出现了，弄得我很辛苦！！很烦！！我开始不回他的讯息，避开他所聊的话题。。=,=

long time ago..

long time ago i din write blog..duno what to write..lol

is abit boring to write blog..dun u feel so?

Dissapointed

i really dissapointed with all i have now..
study..my family..my thing n FRIENDS..
all i do is just a waste..
people duno how to appreciate it..
people think that that is just a waste..
people abandon me..
people put me at a side..
people happy on their way..
the way that i can't follow..
people who pretty than me..
people don't like what i do,say..
say that because of me..
she become like that..canot concentrate on study..
all is my fault..my wrong..
sometime i really feel that at everywhere also
i'm the extra one..
thats no place for me to hide n sit..
is all full of people..
but thats not me..
when something happen alredy
only come forward to ask me this and that..
thats relly like shit!!!!
if u don't want to let me know..
don't want to tell me the truth..
then what for u ask that..they ok ah..
can teach bad thing de ah!!
thats a waste also..
if i'm the extra..just tell..
no need hide here and there..
is just make me feel that more"jia"..
this really make me very dissapointed..
i duno what i'm jian chi about??
when i think back..
i really feel that i'm very stupid..shit..
shit people only can trust that this world still got something that can maintain long...

exam is infront of my eyes

exam already start 1 week..
feel like not so zhu zhong..
this year f5..
but still relax like f1..
duno wad 2 do..what mind also din set..
just like crazy..
stupid..
have 2 change it..
become more..more..more..
????????
all is a question..??
why??why??
haiz..

all began with 0

happy happy happy
all happy..
all the bad run away from me
feel free n duno want 2 write wat thing??
juz all start with 0..
new day..
new lifestyle..
start from today..
hehe..
yeepi..